My notebooks are always Doomed. I’ve read about girls who write in their journals every day. I’ve heard about people who fill three notebooks in two days. But somehow it’s never worked that way for me.
I want my notebook to be a place where I can store random phrases and ideas as they pop into my head or come to my attention. I want to get in the habit of jotting down things that inspire me and things that I want to remember. Sounds like the easiest thing in the world, no? But this is where the catch comes in. I don’t get along with notebooks.
I’ve tried many times to keep a notebook. It’s smooth sailing until I start ripping pages out. I guess you could call me a word control freak. I can’t stand it when a sentence goes wrong. When I write, there is no rough draft. It’s write a sentence, polish a sentence. Write the next sentence, polish it. Write a phrase, and then backspace over the whole thing and start over again. I don’t move on until it’s perfect. If I ever write more than four sentences without using the backspace key, I will be astounded.
I say all this to point out that, technically, I’m not someone who writes. I’m someone who types. If I was required to write this blog post on paper, by now I probably would have crumpled a whole notebook, and I’d still be on sentence number two. I kid you not.
I am too much of a writing perfectionist to keep a notebook. I can’t allow things to be messy, or ugly, or spelled wrong. If my handwriting goes south, I rip it out. If I write a word wrong, I rip it out. If my sentences don’t flow nicely? You guessed it. Rip it out.
*Sigh* Anyway, I am slowly forcing myself to jot things down in a notebook. It's not exactly splendid-going, but I have more than three pages, and I haven't ripped anything out. Major progress, huh.
Funny thing is, I really do think it's helping me with inspiration. I already have two or three blog posts to prove it. My post on the ten Boom family actually came from something I jotted in my notebook . . . Mom and Grandma were having a conversation about it, and I thought it was interesting, so I jotted it down. I never would have remembered it otherwise, but this way I actually got back to it. And I wrote two whole pages on The Help (book vs. movie) while I was sitting in algebra. (Lest you think I'm a poor student, that was before the teacher got there.) Heehee ;)
What about you? Do you keep a notebook or journal? Do you do rough drafts? Do comment! =)